Well, it’s that time of year where I am finally on Christmas break from school!!! A very much needed break from the stress, tests, and dark-thirty clinicals.

So Racheal, what are you going to do on this break? I am so glad you asked. I am contemplating a medication vacation. I am very careful about my meds while school is in, but I miss myself. I miss the creativity, the humor, and  all the things that are me. The real me.

If you are wondering what a medication vacation is it’s a span of time when a person doesn’t take their medications. Now this is the part where you say you don’t think this is a very good idea (Don’t worry my therapist said the same). And this is where I say “You’re not the boss of me.”

Now that my mind has been made up I am going to take a couple days to just be myself and actually like myself again without all the stress. Except the being a single parent with a deployed spouse, having a 3 year old who is testing my limits, a 13 year old who has nothing but attitude and back talk, and an uncle who just moved it because there were no other options. Nothing major or super stressful, right? I need a break.

Maybe with this break I can regain my sense of self and get a better handle on things. I hate being the Debbie-Downer, but with the husband gone for 8 months so far I am losing my sanity. Or am I? Maybe its more apt to say I’m losing my happy insanity. I’m losing my charm and charisma, and my happy has been missing for months. This isn’t like me and I don’t like who I’m becoming.

Back to the actual point. I am packing my bags full of medications so I can take this long awaited medication vacation. The bags being packed full of meds is for when the insanity gets to be too much. This always happens, I take the vacation and have fun for a few days until it gets to be too much and I start taking all of the pills again. 4 days til things get a bit overly crazy. 6 days til the hallucinations start. Maybe this time will be different. Maybe I will get a little bit more time. Lord knows I will start blogging more often during this vacation. Watch out blog, here we go.